Confused

When did life get so complicated?
Nothing makes sense anymore
All of my feelings for friends, family, aquaintances
My feelings for him especially
Constantly changing, moving
Constantly seeing it all froma new perspective
So many different sides to me
I don't even know how I really feel
When will it all become clear again?
Maybe that's what is really tearing me apart
Not anyone or anything else
But my own constantly changing
Muddled thoughts and emotions
Not knowing what to think or feel
I just wish i weren't so confused